Saturday, September 17, 2005
I just came back from a tiring session of voluntary work to raise funds for the Singapore Students Association for the present 2005/2006. It seems like my job in sales, which involves alot of standing and facing crowds of people walking about. Really saps up my focus quickly. Darn tired.
I came home to complete the remaining of my X220 project. This is what I wanna talk about in this entry. Yesterday during my discussion session, I completed this personality test called MBTI (dun ask me what it stands for, I forgot liao!). Well initially I was skpetical about such so-called personality tests. After all, how accurate can it get? Perhaps a little more accurate than those emails that claims you can decipher your personallity based on your birthday dates, horoscope and the-lists-continues.
Well, I was asked to cross out some papers and somehow it promised to derive what your personality is. The results are surprisingly accurate, something that I like to share. I am described as an ISTJ, or Introvert Sensing Thinking Judging person. (Surprise! Michael being introvert?) Yeap, this is who I really am and what I like to convey to my friends around. Check out this external profile description of me as an ISTJ.
For some people who mistaken that I am some cold, no-joke and dull person; you got that partially correct. However, it dawn on me that I should not be correcting such judgment from you guys. After all, it really take a lot of effort for me to truly express myself. I found no such need to do so. But on another hand, sometimes it gets really frustrating, disheartened, disappointed and lonely to be misjudged. As such, I will like to employ the drift-away-day-by-day method to dislodge myself from people who think such ways about me. Maybe someday I need to change, for the better. But till then, I will still be who I am. And trust me, I am trying.
There are some people who enjoy solitude, while others are the center of attraction for people. Sometimes I really wish to be the extrovert that everyone loves, captures everyone's attention and concern. But honestly, if God builds me like that, will there be a need to change myself? On a personal note, I resembles alot like my mom: sensitive, like to keep matters to herself, and her geniune concern for others. Woah, geniune concern? I dun associate Michael to such a compassionate person. Well, believe that. Cos I only open up myself to people I think I really know and understand. It is sad that sometimes my actions are deemed by others as being hypocrtical.
Why I like to write an entry to express this even when my charcter bids me to bottle everything up? Well cos I somewhat reach my brim. Need to dump some complaints online so that I feel better. Not for sympathy, not for extra concern; solely because that's how I titled my blog to be - a refuge for my thoughts. Some of those who read this are my friends, others perhaps for an insight on how this nobody thinks and complains. Have a good laugh and forget about it. Haha... pretty bitter thought, but true to a certain extent. However, I can honestly say that I can express myself better through words that I type, as opposed to spoken words cos nothing will come through my mind when I wanna say something. It was like the time when my ex gf asked me why I wanna break up with her. Listening to her crying really breaks my heart, yet no words came out except "I'm sorry." Another soft-skill that I am poor in - communication.
There - I feel slightly better. Haha somehow the ISTJ personality test didn't cover optimism, something that I possess when I was little. =P Oh ya fer those who are interested in taking this MBTI test, I cannot offer the actual one but you can check this out. Hopeful the link works, cos I am an IT idiot. Haha... still cant find a way to upload my personal picture on my blog. On a happier note, I believe I did fairly well in my accounting exam on Thursday. Well the results are coming out this weekend, can't hardly wait. Meanwhile, there are like 3 more exams waiting for me to finish studying. Shit. I cover very little ground till date. Think my nights are screwed already. Time for me to skip some classes. Hope none of my professors read this.... hehe... Enough of nonsense and complaints. Need to cover some work or its another wasted day again. Tml I will post some pics on the game IU vs. Kentucky at our stadium. Adioz~
I came home to complete the remaining of my X220 project. This is what I wanna talk about in this entry. Yesterday during my discussion session, I completed this personality test called MBTI (dun ask me what it stands for, I forgot liao!). Well initially I was skpetical about such so-called personality tests. After all, how accurate can it get? Perhaps a little more accurate than those emails that claims you can decipher your personallity based on your birthday dates, horoscope and the-lists-continues.
Well, I was asked to cross out some papers and somehow it promised to derive what your personality is. The results are surprisingly accurate, something that I like to share. I am described as an ISTJ, or Introvert Sensing Thinking Judging person. (Surprise! Michael being introvert?) Yeap, this is who I really am and what I like to convey to my friends around. Check out this external profile description of me as an ISTJ.
For some people who mistaken that I am some cold, no-joke and dull person; you got that partially correct. However, it dawn on me that I should not be correcting such judgment from you guys. After all, it really take a lot of effort for me to truly express myself. I found no such need to do so. But on another hand, sometimes it gets really frustrating, disheartened, disappointed and lonely to be misjudged. As such, I will like to employ the drift-away-day-by-day method to dislodge myself from people who think such ways about me. Maybe someday I need to change, for the better. But till then, I will still be who I am. And trust me, I am trying.
There are some people who enjoy solitude, while others are the center of attraction for people. Sometimes I really wish to be the extrovert that everyone loves, captures everyone's attention and concern. But honestly, if God builds me like that, will there be a need to change myself? On a personal note, I resembles alot like my mom: sensitive, like to keep matters to herself, and her geniune concern for others. Woah, geniune concern? I dun associate Michael to such a compassionate person. Well, believe that. Cos I only open up myself to people I think I really know and understand. It is sad that sometimes my actions are deemed by others as being hypocrtical.
Why I like to write an entry to express this even when my charcter bids me to bottle everything up? Well cos I somewhat reach my brim. Need to dump some complaints online so that I feel better. Not for sympathy, not for extra concern; solely because that's how I titled my blog to be - a refuge for my thoughts. Some of those who read this are my friends, others perhaps for an insight on how this nobody thinks and complains. Have a good laugh and forget about it. Haha... pretty bitter thought, but true to a certain extent. However, I can honestly say that I can express myself better through words that I type, as opposed to spoken words cos nothing will come through my mind when I wanna say something. It was like the time when my ex gf asked me why I wanna break up with her. Listening to her crying really breaks my heart, yet no words came out except "I'm sorry." Another soft-skill that I am poor in - communication.
There - I feel slightly better. Haha somehow the ISTJ personality test didn't cover optimism, something that I possess when I was little. =P Oh ya fer those who are interested in taking this MBTI test, I cannot offer the actual one but you can check this out. Hopeful the link works, cos I am an IT idiot. Haha... still cant find a way to upload my personal picture on my blog. On a happier note, I believe I did fairly well in my accounting exam on Thursday. Well the results are coming out this weekend, can't hardly wait. Meanwhile, there are like 3 more exams waiting for me to finish studying. Shit. I cover very little ground till date. Think my nights are screwed already. Time for me to skip some classes. Hope none of my professors read this.... hehe... Enough of nonsense and complaints. Need to cover some work or its another wasted day again. Tml I will post some pics on the game IU vs. Kentucky at our stadium. Adioz~
# posted by gougou @ 10:03 PM 
