college life

Think its the stroke of midnight that I started to write this, so first and foremost, happy birthday to myself! And so it is, the inevitable of age and time has overcome me yet again. Twenty-three of age, single and very much confused about myself. Pretty sad, but hell, dun really care. I always believe there's a time and place for everything, maybe its just my time aint here yet.

Angel was damn sweet. Took the effort to send a present all the way from Spore. Well shes one of a kind; sweet, understanding and cute. What more can a guy wants? Unfortunately, shes attached. Not interested in attached gerls cos I believe in Karma. But how I wish I can be in Spore now to have a nice meal with her...

Honestly I wasnt expecting anything from anyone. Seriously. I am so used to having work (or plan) fer what I own and use, and that I am such a low key person that birthdays dont matter much to me. Kinda numb abt that, rem that I used to get really sad abt how life can be unfair. Unfair as it is, guess that I am on terms with it. No point getting mad or sad, just be indifferent.

Think I need to set a resolution for my birthday rite? haha you still believe in that? Well I don't. But anyhow, I will still set one: I want to be different from who I am as of now. And I wanna look back and tell myself that my 23rd birthday is my turning point. May it be good or bad, I dun really care. Just different. Mess up my life or watsoever, dun give a damn. Simply put, I'm so bored with myself. Time fer a change.

I wanna thank God fer all that He has provide fer me throughout this phase of my life, bringing me so far to date. I wanna thank Him fer the people beside me, and fer the people who really do care abt this insignificant being who happen to be just a statistic. I dunno if I ever made a difference to anyone if I do not exist, or that anyone would care (except my dear grandma, my mom in heaven and dad). But I daresay that God has a plan fer me, and He will execute it no matter what I say or feel. Deo Gracias.

I oso want to have a special prayer. Dear God, pls let there be no more suffering in the world. Disasters and attacks are reported so often; do we deserve that Lord? Lord, I pray fer the people still suffering from the disasters. Help them find strenght in midst of suffering and help them find You Lord. Grant them the unbreakable spirit to carry on their lives. Also to the people around me, Lord. Help them find peace and love around them, and stay happy always. Let them find You, and let them see that You are The One. To my family afar; though I am not a person of too much words, Lord I pray that they are healthy and fine. I do not know how to convey to them but I do love them alot. More than words. Well guess it will just be hidden somewhere in the corner of my heart. Anyway Lord, grant them the wisdom to go along Your path. Thank you Lord. In Jesus Most Precious Name, Amen.

Deo Gracias for Angel, my family and people who care. Deo Gracias.