Thursday, November 03, 2005

 

Forgive but dun forget?

Watched "Prime" last night with Weihua and Lynn at Kerasotes Movie Theatre. So this is the theatre that Prof. Steve was talking about acquiring monopoly rights through their lobbying of the city council for screening of new movies. I think it was the G202 that is playing with my head, cos honestly, I have been talking to others in terms of incentives, consumer surplus and willingness of the buyer. Crap.

"Prime" was about this 37-yr-old divorcee (Uma Thurman) who got caught up in a "cradle-snatcher" situation when she found herself very much infatuated with this 23-yr-old painter (Bryan Greenberg). Well so much so that she will divulge all her sexual thoughts and feelings to her shrink (Meryl Streep), who happens to be the painter's mom. Bringing her son through strict jewish upbringing, she found herself hearing about the complaints, habits and weird behavior of his son that directly links back to her. Well, true love prevails and finally the shrink decides that it is beyond her ethical call as a shrink to allow her paitent telling her all that private details. The shrink confronted the divorcee and told her about the relationship with the painter. Shock, shock, horror, horror. I like how Uma Thurman goes, "You let me talk to you about your son's penis?" Absolutely hilarious! Dun understand why the rest of the theatre doesn't share that moment of embarrassment if they were in Uma Thurman's shoes.

I kinda like the plot. The ethical duties of a shrink, balancing so-ever thinly on the edge as a dutiful mom who considers about the well-being of her son. I will agree to how Meryl Streep reacted in the show and confesses the relationship with her son. Even though I thought that she might do it sooner. Den again in the shoes of a mom, versus a shrink who geniunely wants to help her patient. I love Uma Thurman in this show! She's so hot for a woman in her prime! Well I believe in this complex society that we live in, there are bound to be some of these kinda situations where an older woman is dating a younger man. I can see how far we will go on this argument. But I will stand on the side of the woman (this time) that it is fine to date younger man. Why not? If older man derives the pleasure of dating a younger, hotter woman and the younger woman chooses to do so (for unknown reasons, I shant discuss); I dun see why there is such a big hoo-ha about female craddle snatchers. We see obvious examples like Ashton and Demi being together. Well as long as they are happy, I dun see why not.

The thing that I dislike alot is same-sex relationship, which I am absolutely against. God created Man and Woman to be together, not of the same sex! Doesn't seem right to me. Ok I am deviating from my real topic. Wanna talk a little about my own experience.

I once dated a gerl who is 2 years older than me (pls, its not becos of this that I support having older women dating younger guys) and I see this as a healthy relationship. However I did something I shouldn't have done and broken up with her. Well believe it or not, but it has been pricking my conscious everytime I lean back and reflect on this. Till today. Recently I realised that she checked my profile out on Friendster, and I muster enough courage to send a msg to her and ask her how's shes doing. I was half expecting that she will send some scarstic msg or some hurtful msg like "Oh, I'm happily attached" and stuff like that. She was sweet and all and ask how was I, and was geniunely concern about my well-being in States. That makes me a greater sinner above all.

Here's the thing. I just sent back a reply, asking for her forgiveness. Even after 5 years w/o contact, I am still obliged to ask for it. I somehow feel that if I received her forgiveness, I can move on emotionally. I heard Weihua once said that gerls "forgive but do not forget". And if it is so, I honestly dun mind to pay the price of being forgiven. And it is reasonably understandable for her not to forget (if I were to post what happen, I will be branded FOR LIFE!). But still, taking a step at a time, it is wiser to make a fren than an enemy. I dreamed about being splashed water at, smashed by a pie, being beaten up by her boyfriends, etc etc. And honestly, I dun mind at all. I know it sounds a little selfish, but I am asking for her forgiveness just to feel better inside and neglecting the pain she gone through like what I heard from my frens. I just can't think of anything more suitable than this at this moment. Just to say I am sorry, and pray to the Lord that in time to come, I will be forgiven.

So I dunno if you are out there reading this. But if you are, I just wanna tell you that I am truly sorry for the pain I dealt on you. Forgive me, and I honestly hope that we can still be frens.

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