college life

Not feeling well rite now.... Just having another spell of mood swings and tinking alot of home and friends back there. Hope things go well fer me in time to come. Semester is moving into full swing and everythings moving at a speed that is breathless fer me to catch up. Expectations and lack of motivation.... that is my downfall. Sometimes you just get caught up with your own life that you fail to look around you to take in everything else that is surrounding you. I feel like Im in a well, struggling hard to keep afloat as the water rises. If I manage to thread the water and work hard to keep my head up, sooner or later the water will overflow the well and i will be out of it. If not, well I guess drowning seems like another good option.

Im so negative rite now. Sick of life and everything that is around it. Emily was rite, I need to be alone fer a while to get my orientation right and to get on with what I have left off with. Hope this doesnt take longer than I expect it will.

Sian.