Saturday, May 27, 2006
Brotherhood
Din have enuff sleep again last nite. Pop out of bed at 714am despite sleeping at 4am. Excellent. I begin to feel that I am getting more hardworking and utilizing my time efficiently. Feel like kicking myself in the head fer not getting nuff sleep; just dun seem to be able to these days. As usual, alcohol works wonders.
Almost pick a fight with my Bro last nite. I check myself in time and saw the ugly and unreasonable side of me. Instead I swing my fist at the nearest bus stop ad board. Ouch. The pain sear through my fist and is still hurting as I type this entry. But everything seems to be clear when I felt the pain. Everything. It was then I immediately apologize to him. Being with me fer more than 10 years, I guess he truly understand how I felt at that moment as I was with him at his lowest. But thats not the reason why I am typing this, but the fact that with my Bro I truly understand the meaning of friendship and sticking around fer your friend. True friends indeed care and concern, and you can trust without a single trace of doubt about their actions. They tell you everything and anything, and trust you completely. Best part of all, they are always there. To share, to care, and to be around for you. And you need just a few of these friends in your life. God has been kind; I have more than just a few of them whom I can call Bro. Thanks Bro fer stickin ard!
The physical pain on my fist serve as a wakeup call to me. Something I need to snap out of this fiasco. In the end, I am just self inflicting the pain I feel. Self torturing my tired mind and my weak emotions. And the result is that I am tormenting myself all fer nothing. I'm finally awaken. Thanks fer all your concerns these past weeks.
Today I went to meet Shuang. Like Bro, shes been around since I was primary 1. A really sweet, yet intelligent gerl whom I can share anything with. I updated her about myself fer the past 9 months that we have not met, and seek her advice. She simply ask me,"What do you want? What do you plan to achieve?" Sometimes I just got so obssessed with what others need out of me that I forget myself. Yes, I call finally hear my inner voice that I have blocked out fer so long screaming at me. And the first set of instructions was to have a good rest and sleep. Hahaha... so much fer the inner me! It was really nice to meet Shuang and have her around me. And always her advice will make crystal-clear sense to me, touching every aspect of my doubts and making me a total believer.
Thank the Lord for granting me such friends, friends like Bro and Shuang whose care is limitless. And these bonds that tied me to them are so strong, nothing will ever sever them. If anyone tries to be funny with me or them, regardless of who you are, I will strike you down so hard before you can blink. Cos I simply love them too much. And I will treasure them with all my life.
It has been a fruitful day today. I just can't wait to see the rest coming back from their vacations! There's so much to catch up and yet so little time to be together. Pity Jin and Mun cant be back, will hope to see them in Dec. And to my friends in IU, esp my extended family, I miss you guys alot and hope to see you soon!! Thanks fer all the care and love.
And miles to go before I sleep. And miles to go before I sleep.
Almost pick a fight with my Bro last nite. I check myself in time and saw the ugly and unreasonable side of me. Instead I swing my fist at the nearest bus stop ad board. Ouch. The pain sear through my fist and is still hurting as I type this entry. But everything seems to be clear when I felt the pain. Everything. It was then I immediately apologize to him. Being with me fer more than 10 years, I guess he truly understand how I felt at that moment as I was with him at his lowest. But thats not the reason why I am typing this, but the fact that with my Bro I truly understand the meaning of friendship and sticking around fer your friend. True friends indeed care and concern, and you can trust without a single trace of doubt about their actions. They tell you everything and anything, and trust you completely. Best part of all, they are always there. To share, to care, and to be around for you. And you need just a few of these friends in your life. God has been kind; I have more than just a few of them whom I can call Bro. Thanks Bro fer stickin ard!
The physical pain on my fist serve as a wakeup call to me. Something I need to snap out of this fiasco. In the end, I am just self inflicting the pain I feel. Self torturing my tired mind and my weak emotions. And the result is that I am tormenting myself all fer nothing. I'm finally awaken. Thanks fer all your concerns these past weeks.
Today I went to meet Shuang. Like Bro, shes been around since I was primary 1. A really sweet, yet intelligent gerl whom I can share anything with. I updated her about myself fer the past 9 months that we have not met, and seek her advice. She simply ask me,"What do you want? What do you plan to achieve?" Sometimes I just got so obssessed with what others need out of me that I forget myself. Yes, I call finally hear my inner voice that I have blocked out fer so long screaming at me. And the first set of instructions was to have a good rest and sleep. Hahaha... so much fer the inner me! It was really nice to meet Shuang and have her around me. And always her advice will make crystal-clear sense to me, touching every aspect of my doubts and making me a total believer.
Thank the Lord for granting me such friends, friends like Bro and Shuang whose care is limitless. And these bonds that tied me to them are so strong, nothing will ever sever them. If anyone tries to be funny with me or them, regardless of who you are, I will strike you down so hard before you can blink. Cos I simply love them too much. And I will treasure them with all my life.
It has been a fruitful day today. I just can't wait to see the rest coming back from their vacations! There's so much to catch up and yet so little time to be together. Pity Jin and Mun cant be back, will hope to see them in Dec. And to my friends in IU, esp my extended family, I miss you guys alot and hope to see you soon!! Thanks fer all the care and love.
And miles to go before I sleep. And miles to go before I sleep.
# posted by gougou @ 1:13 PM 
