Sunday, July 30, 2006
Move on
Not much of a goodbye to her, esp when shes crowded with her friends. I can feel strange stares and not-so-friendly looks from her friends, but what the heck, I don't care. What's happened is between me and her, who is in the position to talk about it? But I guess its one of the many problems with too many friends around you, you just cannot keep track with all of them.
Nothing teary, just a tight constriction around the chest. It did not subside, not even when I am typing this blog. It seems that whatever happened this summer kept replaying in my head, even when I try to pull the plug on myself. Ah well, a little drink would do the trick... I hope. All my thoughts, my emotions are stuck at this hourglass that has too small a filter, so much so that little by little memories trickle past me. And my mind decides to turn the hourglass automatically to repeat everything. Great. Sleepless night again.
I think I have done what I can, and what I supposed to do. Giving her morale support, advice, etc. But there is so much I can do. She's on her own now. *shrugh shoulders* I pray hope things turn out fine for her.
Me? As I lie on my bed, the urge to eat comes along. Thinking is a strenuous business, and of cos the urge for re-fuel comes along. kidding. No mood to do whatsoever. Maybe get some sleep and hope things go right for me the next day. So much planned out, so little time left. Looking at her made me think of the things I need to do, and not in a hurry. Well... I am still the procrasinator that I know. Hope its not too rush to do everything I need to settle. Second, I am going to the airport alone. No one else except Boss, who better be on that flight or else xiao mei will kill me! haha... No teary goodbyes, or leaving this place with regret. I have lived well this summer and there will always be the place and time for me to do that again.
Maybe I dun have to worry too much about friends coming. After all, this is my second time leaving. Even if its for a long time, who cares? I dun care myself, why should anyone? Anyway, I've got less than 2 weeks left. Time to do everything else! Things to do, learn, people to meet and issues to settle. When I get back, I move on. New life, new motivation, everything new. Sweet~ I like the smell of it! Plans to make when I get back, things to do and people to meet in Indiana. But I guess somewhere obscure in my heart, there's you. Hidden within the cracks of my memory are my feelings for you. Think that should suffice.
Time to grow up Keng Soon.
There are a trillion things that await you ahead in your life. Am I going to brave them all with my current indifferent attitude? Sounds too tempting to fall into your own comfort zone, but that's enough for now. I move on from now.
Thanks to you, Angel. I learnt alot through this summer, more than I can ever learn in a full school term. You are a great source of comfort and encouragement. God bless you Angel.
Nothing teary, just a tight constriction around the chest. It did not subside, not even when I am typing this blog. It seems that whatever happened this summer kept replaying in my head, even when I try to pull the plug on myself. Ah well, a little drink would do the trick... I hope. All my thoughts, my emotions are stuck at this hourglass that has too small a filter, so much so that little by little memories trickle past me. And my mind decides to turn the hourglass automatically to repeat everything. Great. Sleepless night again.
I think I have done what I can, and what I supposed to do. Giving her morale support, advice, etc. But there is so much I can do. She's on her own now. *shrugh shoulders* I pray hope things turn out fine for her.
Me? As I lie on my bed, the urge to eat comes along. Thinking is a strenuous business, and of cos the urge for re-fuel comes along. kidding. No mood to do whatsoever. Maybe get some sleep and hope things go right for me the next day. So much planned out, so little time left. Looking at her made me think of the things I need to do, and not in a hurry. Well... I am still the procrasinator that I know. Hope its not too rush to do everything I need to settle. Second, I am going to the airport alone. No one else except Boss, who better be on that flight or else xiao mei will kill me! haha... No teary goodbyes, or leaving this place with regret. I have lived well this summer and there will always be the place and time for me to do that again.
Maybe I dun have to worry too much about friends coming. After all, this is my second time leaving. Even if its for a long time, who cares? I dun care myself, why should anyone? Anyway, I've got less than 2 weeks left. Time to do everything else! Things to do, learn, people to meet and issues to settle. When I get back, I move on. New life, new motivation, everything new. Sweet~ I like the smell of it! Plans to make when I get back, things to do and people to meet in Indiana. But I guess somewhere obscure in my heart, there's you. Hidden within the cracks of my memory are my feelings for you. Think that should suffice.
Time to grow up Keng Soon.
There are a trillion things that await you ahead in your life. Am I going to brave them all with my current indifferent attitude? Sounds too tempting to fall into your own comfort zone, but that's enough for now. I move on from now.
Thanks to you, Angel. I learnt alot through this summer, more than I can ever learn in a full school term. You are a great source of comfort and encouragement. God bless you Angel.
# posted by gougou @ 1:40 PM 
