Tuesday, July 04, 2006
No Regrets
Somehow its been a while since I blog... Just kinda lazy I guess! There are so much I wanna to say but I guess they have to wait for some time later.
I have finished reading this book called Tuesdays with Morrie. It happen to be one of the best book I ever read, a definite recommendation from me! I guess in the nutshell it shows the perspective of a dying man and his thoughts about life, love and living it. In fact, I guess I will quote him on my blog if I were to read his book the next time round. There are so many lessons to draw from his last thesis.
I have been telling others that I am going through this quarter-life crisis about finding the meaning of what I am here for. Dun luff, it happens to everyone and anyone. This summer allows me to do some growing up, some thinking, and loads of fun-filled activities. But I guess I attribute what I have learnt from 2 person: Caesar and Neale. Without them, I guess I will still be lost as ever. At least I see a light to the end of the tunnel, taking comfort that there will always be that light there.
However, both great men have different schools of thoughts. I guess what they have to offer are built from their different life experiences. Caesar, for one, have gone through a path only the strongest can survive. Yet he draws his motivation from within, and take heart that only he can solve them. He does not expect, and have seen a great deal more than what I have been through. Of betrayal, of lost love, of anger. Somehow I wish I have his intellect and courage to forage through what I think I will be going through in time to come. To manage issues that envolope us in this cruel society. I wish I have your strength bro...
Neale, on other, teaches me on the missing piece of the jigsaw that is supposed to hold the other segments of my life. He was my original cell group leader, and he is always willing to share his learning from the bible and apply it to my day-to-day problems. I have much to learn from this teacher. Basically he questions me of my spiritual strength when we went out fer dinner one day. I told him, I'm lost; please guide me. And he paitently taught me. I feel that its these great company that I will miss alot when I get back to States. My friends, a great jigsaw puzzle in my life.
Fusing both teachings, I got my answer that I longed to seek. I will not share it here cos there will be others who disagree. Its not I am afraid how others look at me, I dun care. But its just respect for the 2 men who gave me their knowledge unreservely. Furthermore, I will need to execute them in order to say that I have "ran my best, ran the distance, and kept the faith". Words dun really matter in this case. I have alot to thank for, since I have been blessed with such good friends.
I am supposed to write this blog 10 days back. About living without regrets. I have done loads of silly things during this summer, experiencing life and testing my limits. Its really a learning trip back to Singapore. I have found men that I can look up to for guidance when I falter and reconfirmed many friendships that I tot was lost. Now, I know what I want.
Since the last time I blogged, I have done things I only think of doing. Scuba diving and rock climbing and hmm.... oh well there is no need to know so much. It will be a month before I am going back, just hate to leave this place now that I think of it. So much to do! Scuba diving again will be nice! Plus to go and learn my intermediate courses. Theres just a full list of undone stuff. But I am satisfied, life is good to me and I will leave without regrets that good things do happen to me. Like I said, there is alot to give thanks to.
And of course, thanks to you both Caesar and Neale. You did make an impact in my life.
"Everyone loves to dwell in the past. Only because the past is safe and dead."
I have finished reading this book called Tuesdays with Morrie. It happen to be one of the best book I ever read, a definite recommendation from me! I guess in the nutshell it shows the perspective of a dying man and his thoughts about life, love and living it. In fact, I guess I will quote him on my blog if I were to read his book the next time round. There are so many lessons to draw from his last thesis.
I have been telling others that I am going through this quarter-life crisis about finding the meaning of what I am here for. Dun luff, it happens to everyone and anyone. This summer allows me to do some growing up, some thinking, and loads of fun-filled activities. But I guess I attribute what I have learnt from 2 person: Caesar and Neale. Without them, I guess I will still be lost as ever. At least I see a light to the end of the tunnel, taking comfort that there will always be that light there.
However, both great men have different schools of thoughts. I guess what they have to offer are built from their different life experiences. Caesar, for one, have gone through a path only the strongest can survive. Yet he draws his motivation from within, and take heart that only he can solve them. He does not expect, and have seen a great deal more than what I have been through. Of betrayal, of lost love, of anger. Somehow I wish I have his intellect and courage to forage through what I think I will be going through in time to come. To manage issues that envolope us in this cruel society. I wish I have your strength bro...
Neale, on other, teaches me on the missing piece of the jigsaw that is supposed to hold the other segments of my life. He was my original cell group leader, and he is always willing to share his learning from the bible and apply it to my day-to-day problems. I have much to learn from this teacher. Basically he questions me of my spiritual strength when we went out fer dinner one day. I told him, I'm lost; please guide me. And he paitently taught me. I feel that its these great company that I will miss alot when I get back to States. My friends, a great jigsaw puzzle in my life.
Fusing both teachings, I got my answer that I longed to seek. I will not share it here cos there will be others who disagree. Its not I am afraid how others look at me, I dun care. But its just respect for the 2 men who gave me their knowledge unreservely. Furthermore, I will need to execute them in order to say that I have "ran my best, ran the distance, and kept the faith". Words dun really matter in this case. I have alot to thank for, since I have been blessed with such good friends.
I am supposed to write this blog 10 days back. About living without regrets. I have done loads of silly things during this summer, experiencing life and testing my limits. Its really a learning trip back to Singapore. I have found men that I can look up to for guidance when I falter and reconfirmed many friendships that I tot was lost. Now, I know what I want.
Since the last time I blogged, I have done things I only think of doing. Scuba diving and rock climbing and hmm.... oh well there is no need to know so much. It will be a month before I am going back, just hate to leave this place now that I think of it. So much to do! Scuba diving again will be nice! Plus to go and learn my intermediate courses. Theres just a full list of undone stuff. But I am satisfied, life is good to me and I will leave without regrets that good things do happen to me. Like I said, there is alot to give thanks to.
And of course, thanks to you both Caesar and Neale. You did make an impact in my life.
"Everyone loves to dwell in the past. Only because the past is safe and dead."
# posted by gougou @ 11:57 PM 
